Someday I will paint how I feel

For now it's Flowers.  Someday I will paint how I feel. I want to be an artist who portrays a story of emotion. I want to move someone.  I tried years ago, but had little if any skill at rendering anything looking real. So now it seems I run out of time , I am a new grandmother, don't get  me wrong I am thrilled to be one, but I pay a cost , a yearning to learn skills before I am too old or sick. I have little time to do what I really want to for myself.